Friday, November 26, 2010

When RL comes into play and disturbs SL

As Sl'ers we deal with RL issues as well, some take us away for awhile. As for me. Being partnered to amazing guy, that is still grieving from a RL loss. As my RL started to crumble in March 09, around the same time so was his. He would either leave himself up or his Alt up for me to leave him messages and he would check in to see if I was on. That summer we did have a chance to meet each other and have fun. Giving him the chance to just get out and breathe for a short period of time each day. He was the best tour guide showing me his beloved city. October came around with a email, letting me know of his devastating news as me I was living more in SL. He knew I was strong enough to handle being in SL without him, being strong, supportive of him. Knowing I would wait for his return. He would pop up every couple of months, to give me tier money and spend some time with me. As the year continued. I kept busy meeting new awesome and amazing friends. Learning to do create stuff, keeping up with my modeling. Working in retail in RL, it didn't leave much time for doing Fashions Show on the weekend. I pursued my modeling career as a In-Store Model and became a Manager for Reign Congrejo over the other In-Store models.

As the months went by, I was changing as my RL was. I found how easy it was to be laughing along with friends, when I was really crying in RL. I my answer to everything was I am doing okay. Knowing that everyone has thier own issues and I didn't want to burden them with mine. I guess that is the one thing that hasn't change in me. In the back of my mind, I knew to expect he would come back changed. Being prepared for it was another story, which I found myself in August he came back. We took a step back, still being partnered and spending time together. I knew October was a few months away and he would take time off again. Mine was being upturned as I was trying to prepare to leave my RL home. It seemed as soon as I started to pack, I would get overwelmed and head into SL. I would fall sleep dancing among friends at night, wake up a few hours later to restart my day in SL. I was aware of I should be in doign stuff in RL and it was just to easy to stay in SL. It was one thing I had control over my life.

I have wonderful friends that love and support me. They will support my decision to remain partnered. They all know how much I love him. I am the realistic and the believer that and anything can happen. We may not have the type of relationship we had before and may part ways. At the same time, I feel with our deep rooted friendship, we can find love again and may be even better before. Knowing both of us are have our hearts closed for different reasons. Only time will us.

I get up each day and put on smiling face for SL. Not knowing when he will come back again. Will it be soon or year from now. Wondering thoughts of knowing at one time, thinking of me would make him smile or close his eyes being able to feel me nearby. Knowing the possibility I am not being thought of and at the same time I want to believe he is.

I dont know what tomorrov will be, as he is trying to find the end the tunnel. I am finding myself still in stuck in darkness.

Friday, October 8, 2010

Monday, September 27, 2010

A lil insight of Rhian








My name is rhian Milena. I joined SL back in December 2007. After a couple of months, I made a decision to step out of SL. On what I thought would be my last night, one of my friends insisted that I should come to a Grand Opening of a club. While I was there, I met the guy that would become my best friend and later my loving Husband. We pretty much live by enjoying each day and making the most of it and not following the SL rulebook. Then RL came in and separated us for a year. I always knew he would come back and I'll be here waiting for him. Now he has returned, we are taking the time to get to reacquainted with each other and most important together.

How I became a Model?? Well that is an interesting story..... I never thought of becoming one... Well one of my dearest and quite ZANY sister decided to become a model. Her brilliant idea was for me to become one also and we would rule the runways. Unfortunately RL has taken her away. I continued to pursue my dreams as a model. I became a Live-Store Model. I am now working for this "AMAZING" designer and I am the Manager of the other In-store Models. Gee has always been one of my biggest supporter.

What do I like to do for fun.... I like to explore the sims in ShowCase and show them off in my Flickr page. I enjoy laughing and dancing with Gee and friends. Spending quiet moments with Gee. Being surrounded with the people I deeply care about. Most of all getting zany and just having fun.

I started taking classes at New Citizen Inc, a while back and really never finished them. I was just taking a class that was being held that day. While Gee was away, I went back with a new attitude and approach... To complete one course at a time, before moving on the next subject. I have been successful. I realize that I really suck in Animations, but refuse to give up on it. I was always amazed by watching Gee build in the past and with his artwork. Since he has been back and I've finished all the building class. We spend our time is building at the sandbox. In the process I built a home and got it listed on the SLM. Realizing I am having fun in building. My next attempt in classes will be Scripting. I still have one class to finish in Textures. I do believe in being well rounded and taking all the opportunity to learn in SL.